I was pretty bummed that I missed Bible study two weeks in a row, it's no secret. When someone in your house has a fever and barfs, I guess it's time to stay home. But then when someone continues to have a fever and misses MMO the next day, it's trying. Again, I was pretty bummed that HJ and I didn't get to go to the Silver Comet Trail to test out the jogging stroller I borrowed. But now everyone is well. Am I content?
I'm only 3 and 1/2 years into this motherhood thing, but I feel like I'm just now learning how to give up "stuff" for the sake of others. My "stuff" ranges from the simple to the divine:
- completing a task in one sitting (LAUNDRY, oh my word, THE LAUNDRY)
- drinking an entire cup of coffee or hot tea before it gets cold
- taking showers on a regular basis (working on it, really)
- shaving my legs when I do get a shower
- window shopping
- eating junk without the zombies coming after my goods
- eating junk whenever I want (now I just sneak it while hiding in the pantry)
You know how if you pray for patience, you'll be given OPPORTUNITIES TO EXHIBIT PATIENCE? I've been praying for compassion. Not for me, but to be able to show it. The Daddy broke his thumb playing flag football, and I've not been sympathetic. The Daddy was sick earlier this month, and I've not been sympathetic. AE has been sick for a few days this month. I've been praying for the spirit to overtake me and act on my behalf, but I'm learning that it doesn't work that way. I have to take action and use prayer as a power source NOT to do what I cannot, but to CHANGE how I react. Somehow I'm thinking that my ability to show compassion is linked to my feeling content. Am I content?
So, when I was looking for something on COMPASSION, I finally turned to a place that's bound to have some true answers. Here's what I found:
As I ask for compassion, I am learning to give compassion and recognize it in my own life. You know, like the compassion that others and God have shown me.
Now I need to look up contentment...